2,500 miles away from everyone and everything I had ever known. Those first few days trying to figure out a new city I’d never been to before without the helping hands of family or friends, and everything and everyone different than I expected. Feeling alone, scared and uncertain I walked into this church (pictured here) for the welcome service for the start of my graduate work at Fuller Theology Seminary. So many people filled the big church but I felt isolated with a vast amount of emotions. I asked God if I had made a mistake going so far outside my comfort zone. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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And then during the service a song played that answered that prayer. The lyrics with God saying: “I will break their hearts of stone, Give them hearts for love alone. I will speak my words to them. Whom shall I send?”
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Although this church event was 8 years ago, a couple days ago Caleb & I drove past the church and I had a flashback to the event. I have driven/walked past the church hundreds of times since that day, but leaving Caleb’s parents house on Saturday after a wonderful early Christmas celebration the memories flooded back.
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I remember feeling so helpless in that church. So small, wondering how and why God would choose someone like me to do something with. And meekly calling out to God in my heart as I sung the words out loud: “Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart.” But 8 years later, I wasn’t alone anymore: I have the love of my life beside me, so much family who loves me. I cried happy tears in Caleb’s arms, thanking God He would lead me outside my comfort zone so I could meet Caleb, and be apart of doing God’s purpose for my life.
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What’s a time you’ve been outside your comfort zone? Or have felt that tug on your heart? Love hearing from you!
